SO I PICKED UP LA INK

I want Kat Von D to do a tattoo
for me..but gotta save up..been trippen
lately..js been buying sheesh i dont even need.=9

THIS IS SICK.

I love bigg hair n everything
but this is BIGG..i like this!

BETTY_LIPSTICK..TAT'D

SHE MAKES ME WANT TO GET MORE TATTOOS.I LOVE THIS CHIKKA!

POTTY MOUTH!

90210..CANT WAIT

THE ONLY REASON WHY I WOULD WATCH
IS CAUSE THERE IS A BLACK BROTHER ON THE SHOW..
AND I LOVE HIM CUZ HE DID A FAWKIN BOMB ASS JOB
IN "THE WIRE"..I WATCHED THAT SHEESH EVERYDAY IT
WAS ON..SO DONT TRIP.IMA WATCH YOU IN THIS SHEESH TOO.

THERE CALLING MEEH NAME..

SUM BAD ASS HEELS..AN I DONT EVEN WEAR HEELS ALOT..IMMA SNEAKER CHIKKA

THIS MOVIE IS THE SHEEESH..

BOMB ASS MOVIE SON..


I BASICALLY JUS SEEN THIS SHIT SO DONT TRIP PEEPS..


I LOVED IT..

KIDROBOT..PRETTY IN PINK..

i want to really cop this rite here..on the real sheesh!!

SORRIE I'VE BEEN ON..

IVE BEEN GONE..
BUT IM BACK NOW..
JUST BEEN GOING THUR
SUM SHIT RITE NOW..
BUT EVERYTHING IS
STARTING TO LOOK UP
NOW..LOL

LeaVin s0oN..

so in like 4 weeks i will be leaving for college. i sorta sad and happy at the same time. but then again im goin to miss the hell out of everybody. i cant beleive that everything is falling out of place rite now. like my best friend is taking it pretty hard..i havent heard from him in like 2 and a half weeks. i feel like he is tryna let me go..he is really heart broken of me leaving. he says that i will find someone new and leave him and never talk to him ever again. and i will i will forever love him no matter what i go in life. he has been there for me through thick and thin. i just dont really know wat to do abut all this change in my life rite now. hopefuly things will clear up..

ViDeO oF tHe HouR..BoReDuH<3

LuA ChInA BlAzErS

iDk wAt We WerE doIng..lol

NoT gOoD..

We finished those damn bottles in like 6 or 7 hours..Man did i have a Hangover. And i had a job interview the next day..I will never do this shit again!

7.13.08..thx!?

oKAY this was a wild nite for me. i have never done anything like this. mann i dont know wat came over me to do this..well this is wat happened..me and my frend[no names]..lol..well js call him boss for rite now..we had this little thing for each other are senior year but we never did anything about it..cuz we were both tied up with other people and sheessh so we were js close frends that wen we saw each other would give huggs and sqeeuzes hahah..but nothing major un till this last weekend 7.13.08..well at the kick back we were talkin and having fun and i was tried from dancing earlier wit the homie Jose..i love you PaPa..he calls me MaMa..its js a thing we had since like 10th grad..so yeah..i was tried but then the homie Boss was like damn i asked u to dance and u said in a little i js want to drink and i still havent gotten a dance and u dancing with every body else..so i felt a little bad cuz we still had a thing for each other..so Boss was like a want a lap dance..so of cousre i had to show him wat i was working wit..ahhaha..lmao..so i gave him a lap dance and of course u knoe it was BOMB cuz my song "SHAKE THAT MONKEY BY: TOO SHORT" came on..hahaha ..so it was sorta destined for us to dance together hahahah..so i was working him and the chair was sliding acroos the floor from how bad i was working him..we hit the table in the kitchen of marios house so he had to hold on to it..lol.hell he js had a bright ass smile on his face wen we were dancing..so after the song had ended..i got up and he was so speechless..ahahah..he was like "mmmmmmm we done dancing..come on..i mean mean..ahahahah" it was os funny i was like yeah BOss im done hell shake that monkey is a long ass song i was tried..ahahah..so after that i headed to the bathroom to look how i was lookin..still looked good..ahah..so as i was coming out Boss was standing there..so i was like oooh im done go a head..but he was like naw come with me and i was like naw go a head but he grabbed my hands and lead me back in to the bathroom and yeah..it was sorta werid at first then it was all good..js a little kissing..cuz im not that type of gurl..get it straight..lol..i had a fun nite but it was a wild ass nite..lol..some pics

ThiS wAs a WilD aSS weEkEnD..7-13-08!!

Omgeeh..where do i start..well mmmmmmmmmmmmm well i was chillin wit the home gurls brenda[compton] mary[liddomary] and mary[forehead mary] and my other frend ines. we had went to IN -n-Out..and was js chillin there..but then our homie Mario had called us and said that he was having a kick back at his house..So wen we were done eating we headed over there.. it was cool in the beginning becuz we didnt have no drinks in our system..ahah.but later on shit was poppen..it was js a hand full of closest frends there..it was fun as fawk but later in the nite shit got really freaky as fawk..haha my home gurl was gettin lap dances from this one nigga thats birthday was that day he turned 22 i think..cant remember..his ass was all over her that nite..then he gave me a lap dance and me and my homie gave him a lap dance cuz i told him he wasnt doing it right for me..ahahha..but it was wild..man i have never ever been to that kind of wild kick back..heres sum picz i can only show.haha



"ALL IN THE NAME OF FAWKIN KICK BACKS" QUOTE BY:RAbbIT & RIchIE-g

Omg..so Sad..bUt FuNny

went down town to the Alley..

Ok well went to the Alley wit to of my closest gurlfriends. we had so much fun down there. but of course we always think its nasty and dirty ass fawk down there but we keep goin..cuz its so cheap..lol..and we went down there to buy fabric to make more clothes and bags..so it was a cool ass tripp down there. man it gets so damn hot down there in the down town area..hOtT aSs hEll?!

well i dyed my hair..yeah, i finally did it..

well yeah i finally dyed my hair after saying i would forever. but i never could find a color, but i found one on friday. my frend Brandy[ thx Brandy] dyed it for me in her hair class cause she need sum one to dye so i was like hey its free and i dont gotta pay for nuttin..js do it..so i did..my moms knows about me getting it dyed..but my dad doesnt knoe..ive had this color in my hair since friday and its tuesday and my dad still hasnt noticed..i tell u he doesnt pay attention to me at all..but its cool that mean i can still do wat the fuck i want to do..heres sum picz of the new hair..

Imma gonna miss you Kevin Tran!?

I don't know what to write
I just don't have a clue
But all I want to say
Is how much we all miss you.
We miss your jokes and sweet smiling face
We were lucky to be sent with your grace
We pray for you as you watch down from above
And wonder if you can see how much you are loved.

Your problems are finished, but ours live on
Because you left the pain here, now you are gone
Our hearts are now broken, but what can we do
Your smile in your photo shows the beauty of you.

The pain will not go, but the tears have now dried
Can you imagine the hurt that's inside?
At first we were angry, how could you be so wrong?
But now we understand that you couldn't live on.

Our love is everlasting
Never believe it will end
We all miss you so deeply
And so do all your friends.

Man i just dont know what to do..Im so depressed rite now..

Well this is for the love ones that i have lost..i just felt the need to write a poem rite now..well here it is..{RIP..KEVIN..TONY..MIKE}

They were a friend to remember,
a friend we love so much.
The memory runs through my mind
of the last time we talked.
He lived a life of happiness,
a life filled with love.
Now he Looks down on us from up above.

He was always there to make you
laugh when your day was going wrong.
Where was he the day where we
had to say "so long?"

Why did it hafta end
this way in so much pain?
Since he left this world, things have
never been the same.

I can no longer look forward to
tomorrows anymore,
because I know that they will never
be the way they were before.

Not seeing his face,
not hearing his voice.
I wish there could
have been some choice.

Life can begin and end so fast.
The memory of those lost will always last.

I wish there was some way
I could have said goodbye.
The thought of him runs through
my head as I look up in the sky.

Knowing he is looking down on us
with a smile on his face,
remembering the life he lived before
he left this place.

If his life didn't end so quick
he would have gotten far.
So as I end this poem I want you
to remember this:

Live your life to the fullest
because it could end real fast.
Base your life on the future,
but keep memories of the past..

{rip Kevin. Tony. MIke]

Depressed..

I have no reason why im depressed..
i think i might be depressed becuz i knoe how
they feel rite now. on how they lost there frend.
ive lost someone close like that to my heart.
everytime you have a flash back of wat you guys
did and how much you guys had fun..it hurts to
the point where you are like why didnt god take me
,why did he have to take you. i feel in my heart so
empty rite now..reading all those comments and messages
that his frends sent him hoping that one day he would reply
back hurts me so much. cause i know how they feel inside..
i fault the same why wen i lost my bestfrend[grandma]..i could
tell her everything and we would do everything i mean everything.
i remember on time we were eating at a resturant and i seen this
cute boy and my g-mama had seen him too and at the same time we were
both like.."that boy is fine..hahahah" and we js laughed..man i miss
you and i will forever keep missing you..and i hope you are having a ball
up there in HEAVEN you and i hope you are too KEVIN..you will TRUELY BE MISSED!!

P.I.P KEVIN TRAN..

You will Truely Be Missed!

I really like this..so i had to give a shot out to J*star!! For this One..WoW!

I feel the need to speak about the economy
So study this star like any other in astrology
Homeless people sleep in front of Ferrari dealerships
Shaking their plastic cups for a meal and shit
Unemployed line longer, Graduation line shorter
Less education, Less time spent in boarders
Even the employed hold cups and shake up their quarters
Now you tell me if that's a fucked up type of order
I stand at the gas pump like its do or die
I can choose not to eat or choose not to drive
Either way I go, I have to decide
Essentially I need both so I'm already half deprived
And everyday I have to sit down and swallow my pride
When our own government tells us lies
Then I'm a threat when the truth lurks my eyes
It hurts my heart to hear the children cry
But even the government knew Osama would take the sky
For this country would you really die?
Not me I don't own a flag because I don't support the lie
They say "J*star are you going to vote?"
Only if I could vote to get rid of them both
I don't want to rain on your pins and buttons that read change
But there is to much going on for one person to maintain
A place where legs open more then books
A place where the cops are the real crooks
A place where great grandma is barely 60
A place where sex hasn't been safe since the 60's
A place where people are powered by greed
A place where the leader of the country can barely read
And you mean to tell me one person can stand this?
It's gonna take a planet for these problems to vanish

WhErE iM i NoW?!

where im i now...
i have clues of where i am..
but then i figure that i dont..
where im i now..
life has been diffcult..
ive had my ups && downss..
but they were all worth it..
because it has made me a better person in LIFE..
where im i now..
people see me as the loud crazy funny frend..
that can take bad situation and turn them
in to good things..
but they dont knoe what i really feel at times..
where im i now...
i feel myself adventuring out of my sourndings
im the type of person that can do shit all by myself.
i didnt need others to fellow me..im self made..
where im i now..
i figure i came into this world alone..
so im goin to leave this world alone..
i figure that,,mmmm im 18 now
so i think and hopefully will leave
until hell..wen god wants me to
come to the gates and be free of all my sins..
where im a now..
im glad that im the person that im now, if i wasnt i wouldnt be HERE?!

DiErEcT yOuR oWn..LiFe!<$

In Life Its Important 2 Remind Ourselves that we are the Director of

Our Movie. A Good Director Knows When The Scene Has ended And

when 2 Yell Cut.
You can’t tell me nothing, especially when i know im right.


Fame never gets to me, only makes me more hungry.

LiFe GoEs On..

life has no other discipline to impose, if we would but realize it, than to

accept life unquestioningly. everything we shut our eyes to, everything

we run away from, everything we deny, denigrate or despise, serves to

defeat us in the end. what seems nasty, painful, evil, can become a

source of beauty, joy and strenght, if faced with an open mind.

i LoVe tO DReSS uP fOr LinEgRiE pArtIeS!

Well lets see. my frend was havin a dress sexy nite party at her house. it was really fun. and i got to dress in this cute little see thur black shirt..thanks to my ex for buying it..hahaha and he never seen me in it..hahahah well here is the badest bitch at the party..hahaha im iLL!!

uuuuummmm??

Well idk what im going to do for the 4th of July. Really don't think that my dad has anything planned. This will be the first 4th of july with out my moms, and this will also be the first time that my too favorite cuzins will not be here. This year jus isn't for me. Then on top of that im going to be leaving soon for college in August on the 22nd. This is jus to much on my plate rite now. I was talkin to my bestfrend Tray last nite, well till like 3!12 in the morning about me leaving and goin to school in a different state and js trying it out for a year. He seemed sorta up set with me moving it seemed to me? But he was talking about all this sad shit like remember this ooh and that, it made a gurl want to cry. Hell like one or two tears fell, and I was feeling like really low at that point in time. But some how I got to laughing again becuz he was like why you cryin for? Hell im coming with you..you think I could fit in your suit case. Like knowing damn well he can't. He always says funny shit like that to help me throw the shit that I be going throw and I do the same for him. I think that's why we have been the best of friends for so long, hell since 2003. He is the other side of my pillow and he is the peanut butter to my jelly sandwhich..lmao!! But so far he is my everything, and im truely going to miss my bestfrend....[sadness has entered the room again]. =]

uuuuummmm.,