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Well idk what im going to do for the 4th of July. Really don't think that my dad has anything planned. This will be the first 4th of july with out my moms, and this will also be the first time that my too favorite cuzins will not be here. This year jus isn't for me. Then on top of that im going to be leaving soon for college in August on the 22nd. This is jus to much on my plate rite now. I was talkin to my bestfrend Tray last nite, well till like 3!12 in the morning about me leaving and goin to school in a different state and js trying it out for a year. He seemed sorta up set with me moving it seemed to me? But he was talking about all this sad shit like remember this ooh and that, it made a gurl want to cry. Hell like one or two tears fell, and I was feeling like really low at that point in time. But some how I got to laughing again becuz he was like why you cryin for? Hell im coming with you..you think I could fit in your suit case. Like knowing damn well he can't. He always says funny shit like that to help me throw the shit that I be going throw and I do the same for him. I think that's why we have been the best of friends for so long, hell since 2003. He is the other side of my pillow and he is the peanut butter to my jelly sandwhich..lmao!! But so far he is my everything, and im truely going to miss my bestfrend....[sadness has entered the room again]. =]